This is bothering me a lot more than I'd like to admit, so I'm reaching out for ideas/advice/I don't even know what I'm looking for. One of my best friends, and my former paramedic partner, committed suicide in April 2015 after a short brutal battle with ptsd. I've been off work since April 2016, and have twice been independently diagnosed with ptsd, a diagnosis the wcb disputes. So I've been in appeal with them since August 2016. In the last week I suddenly have a new appeals advisor, and in our second conversation, he dropped a bombshell. Apparently wcb says my partner didn't commit suicide. For 1104 days I believed my partner committed suicide. Then on day 1105 that's changed... maybe? I've been a mess since that conversation, or more of a mess than usual. He clarified a bit today in an email. He couldn't/wouldn't disclose her cause of death, but wrote that my employer told wcb they "didn't believe" her death was a suicide. So the information isn't even coming from wcb. What does my employer have to do with this, why would they even be a factor? If anything, wcb would/could have told my employer her cause of death... but not the other way around. My partner still had an open claim with wcb when she died, and they would know her cause of death, whether suicide or not, in order to close her file. But apparently wcb doesn't know... or do they? Did she suicide? didn't she? Having a 1104 day belief that my partner did commit suicide, and then on day 1105 maybe she didn't, or maybe she did, no one seems to know for sure... how do I even begin to process that? how does that fit in with Crit A? what does that do to my diagnosis? what does that do to my claim? This is such a mind f*ck. I don't know what to do with this.