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Message: <blockquote data-quote="Strangelongtrip" data-source="post: 1721318" data-attributes="member: 46653">I honestly didn't even think of it like that but omg you make me feel so good!! thank you so much. I was really worried that I was going to regress into being "bad" again but tbh I think I can be the nice, kind, and caring part of me and the intriguing interesting and fun part too. That's how I felt most myself today--cheeky, offbeat, avant garde, but still caring and sweet. Thank you for putting this into perspective!! It's so weird to have people love me for me and not who I show them. This is the first person that I've felt romantically interested in that I haven't twisted myself in some way for, and I guess I should celebrate that!! I am myself with friends but this is different.I'm going to just choose to be grateful for being loved I think. Honestly we've both talked about it and are both not in a place for a romantic relationshi, but for some reason I still get spun out if people don't want me that way (but when they do? I also get upset. I got a lot more interpersonal trauma stuff to work on). I want them in my life. I think I'm a little scared of the feelings I have, and them having power over me like that. Sometimes I try to twist myself so I don't feel those things. It's so, so scary to me to truly like someone in that way for THEM, not for who they showed me, or how I showed them. Thank you again Friday.</blockquote>