My college roomies and I were going to get together for a social distancing happy hour tonight. I cancelled.
I feel like I have been inundated with so much information and ah-ha moments, that I don't have the space in my cup for casual conversation with people who know nothing of what I'm going through.
And I feel shame in that. Disappointment in myself from letting it overwhelm me so badly, the thought of going, that I just said no. Is that normal?
I feel weak for not being able to do something so simple, when for so many years I have been the go-to person in a crisis. And I've dealt with some crazy stuff. And now, I'm overwhelmed about seeing old friends?
I keep trying to tell myself that it's ok. That I'm in the middle of something very big and I'm dealing with it. But...it's really hard to believe myself.
I feel like I have been inundated with so much information and ah-ha moments, that I don't have the space in my cup for casual conversation with people who know nothing of what I'm going through.
And I feel shame in that. Disappointment in myself from letting it overwhelm me so badly, the thought of going, that I just said no. Is that normal?
I feel weak for not being able to do something so simple, when for so many years I have been the go-to person in a crisis. And I've dealt with some crazy stuff. And now, I'm overwhelmed about seeing old friends?
I keep trying to tell myself that it's ok. That I'm in the middle of something very big and I'm dealing with it. But...it's really hard to believe myself.