I can't do this. i just can't.

[Lsquaredw]

I feel so alone, unwanted, upset, angry, childish, scared, furious, and worst of all-smothered. I feel smothered. That word keeps rolling around in my head and I can't get it out. I have no idea why. When I was abused I was choked a few times, but not smothered. There are a lot of things I just don't understand and then I feel irritated. Ugh. I just need a hug and some prayers. :(

 

[Lucycat]

:hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:
Sorry, I can't offer prayers, but here are some hugs!

I too feel pretty crappy today. Not smothered but trapped. Alone and unwanted. Childish and scared.
I know that this is not the real me. I know I will feel better again. I just don't know when.

I said to my T this week that I just can't do this any more. He replied that, we will take it easy for a while but that he is proud that I trust him and thanked me for allowing him to be a part of my healing!

I know what you mean about having a word rolling around in your head. I hate it when that happens, and you never really notice when that word goes.

Anyway, I am thinking of you, and hope you are soon feeling better

Lucy
xx

 

[Nyx]

:hug: :hug: girls

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad. Take advantage of the weekend and rest and pamper yourselves, sometimes some pampering can do miracles...

Chin up, it does go away...

 

[Lsquaredw]

Thank you everyone. I was just having a terribly bad couple of days. I feel better today. I got a good nights sleep last night and I feel recharged. I am going to try and take it easy mentally and emotionally this weekend. I need a break. I was thinking that if I could take a vacation from my own mind, that would be awesome! But, unfortunately, that doesn't work very well...hahaha

 

[Nyx]

I need a break. I was thinking that if I could take a vacation from my own mind, that would be awesome! But, unfortunately, that doesn't work very well...hahaha

I know what you mean.. :) But sometimes it's helpful to listen to it, it can give you useful information ;)

 

[Heather]

Lsquared - I know exactly how you feel! My world was caving in the last few weeks too UGH! it was awful. I'm better now and sounds like you are too.

Glad to hear it.

Take care.

Heather