I can't get out of bed today...

[SeekingAfrica]

I have psyhiatrist appointment tomorrow(she was booked for today- but at least she knows my history so I'm not starting from scratch), I did a side gig for extra cash last week, made budget planner from a notebook, socialised, informed my client/work of my ptsd flare(and of having ptsd at all)... I've been fighting so hard to get better. And now I have to travel home for few days(always stressful, now more), on Friday and zillion things need to be done and I COULDN"T get out of bed.
This is not supposed to happen to me. Worked on the couch for 2 h so I hopefully get something paid tomorrow. I still need to make the invoice which may take less than an hour but feels like too much energy. Eating instant noodles and junk because everything beyond boiling water in the kettle is too much. But it feels like I was barely getting a dent in all I need to if I want to keep living, and I just lost a day.... because I couldn't get out of bed or drawn out than numbing feeling that makes me nausious and makes me wish I can make drastic changes I am too broke to make. This day feels so sad, so senseless, like it will never be done and I just can't exist in it. It feels horrifying like there's no solution.

 

[Pablo]

I really understand this. I ve spent years with dreams trying and I can go months not really.movng from.my.matress on the floor. The harsh reality is it only.gets worse. I've probably spent a 8/9.days fully awake.not.beinv able to move. My livelihood destroyed by.my.head.along with all relationships....#try and eat something.....your not aloneX

 

[arfie]

gentle empathy seeking. you are far from alone with this recurring phenom. the most effective therapy tools i have found for this one are frequent rest/therapy breaks and radical acceptance. trying harder only makes me more tired. relaxing and reminding myself that rest is a productive activity helps me set a pace i can keep for a long haul.

steadying support while you find what works for you.