FauxLiz
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I woke up when my alarm went off but I couldn't go in today. I woke up from a nightmare I couldn't remember but the terror had my body feeling as though I was vibrating from head to toe and I couldn't drag myself out of the terror. I thought I would just take the morning off but it ended up being the kind of day where I couldn't leave the house. I hate feeling like this, I hate the fact that that I get so scared of things I can't even remember that I can't function, that I don't want to function. During my therapy session last week I mentioned that lately all I want to do is numb out to not feel anything and it was like he didn't understand what I was saying. Tomorrow I can't afford to not go to work but I really don't know how to do it. I just want to disappear.