I don't know how to deal with my depression

Crying Lady

New Here
I've been feeling extremely sad all day. I don't know what the exact reason is but I can only take a guess I think I may have something like adjustment disorder. I am quitting my current job and getting a new one I always hated the one I have I guess I am just nervous. They let me know when I start but I am worried that they may change their minds or I just won't get it.

I am trying hard not to cry and I work tonight. My sister was talking too much to be ealier and I was getting annoyed because I wanted to be left alone. I didn't eat much today and all I want to do is stay at home all day but this week is my last week.

I have an appointment with my psych and I will start looking for someone for therapy I guess. I have been having a hard time dealing with my severe depression ror a while and job badly affects my mental health. I just want everything to stop.
 

Crying Lady

New Here
I had countless thoughts of suicide and even came close to planning it more than once. My doctor would probably want me in a hospital for a few days but I don't think I want that. I stopped taking my last meds because I felt like it wasn't working I am wondering if I should've kept taking it, I think I only took it for a few months or at least a month. Should I even bother with therapy? I think I am just overwhelmed by life and burned out by my job.
 

ladee

MyPTSD Pro
I understand how you are feeling. As many here will.

Please let your Pdoc know about your meds. Maybe you didn't give them time or you needed something else. But please. Let them know.

I am just now getting on the other side of a bad depression so I know how our mind works and the thoughts we have.

I can honestly say I didn't want to die, but I did want the pain to stop. So I knew not to make any descions until I gave my meds a chance to work.

Glad you reached out. You aren't alone and it's ok to give our selves more time to feel better.

And hope you follow thru getting a therapist. We all need someone to talk to.

Here, we do listen. And we do understand. Hope you give yourself a chance for things to change.
 

Starfire

Confident
Understand. Sitting here trying to think of a good excuse to cancel therapy today. It's raining. It's windy. Can't decide what to wear. Just not up to it. Can't lie to therapist so car trouble is out.
Just last week things were great. Pig Pen's cloud over my head.
 
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