flowerapple
Confident
Hi. I didn't know what to make the topic.
I'm sure I am just making a bigger deal out of this as I always do, but I have a problem. I won this competition at university for free textbooks which is good. The problem is I have to take a picture for the school website to collect my prize, which would sound like no problem except that I don't like taking pictures.
Taking pictures make me feel so uncomfortable and icky. I just feel so grossed out about having to pose for a picture. I don't like looking at pictures of myself or taking pictures or even looking at my reflection because it just makes me feel really gross. It's just that when I was younger I used to have to do that. I would have to pose and have my picture taken while I was doing certain things. But I mean I dont know why its bothering me so much because it's not like that was the worse thing he did to me, and he only did it sometimes like when he was going to be away or I was going to be away, and its just pictures. Anyways, it's just making me feel so uncomfortable thinking about having to take the picture even though I know its different. Because it's not just taking the picture, but the fact that its going to be there for others to see and I just feel like they are going to be able to see everything, even though in my head I know they won't.
I just need some help on deciding if I should take the picture and if I so then what can I do that would help, or if I should not take the picture and just turn down the prize.
I'm sure I am just making a bigger deal out of this as I always do, but I have a problem. I won this competition at university for free textbooks which is good. The problem is I have to take a picture for the school website to collect my prize, which would sound like no problem except that I don't like taking pictures.
Taking pictures make me feel so uncomfortable and icky. I just feel so grossed out about having to pose for a picture. I don't like looking at pictures of myself or taking pictures or even looking at my reflection because it just makes me feel really gross. It's just that when I was younger I used to have to do that. I would have to pose and have my picture taken while I was doing certain things. But I mean I dont know why its bothering me so much because it's not like that was the worse thing he did to me, and he only did it sometimes like when he was going to be away or I was going to be away, and its just pictures. Anyways, it's just making me feel so uncomfortable thinking about having to take the picture even though I know its different. Because it's not just taking the picture, but the fact that its going to be there for others to see and I just feel like they are going to be able to see everything, even though in my head I know they won't.
I just need some help on deciding if I should take the picture and if I so then what can I do that would help, or if I should not take the picture and just turn down the prize.