i just cannot function anymore. i cant think straight. i cant remember anything. im always distracted by everything. if i get started on one thing, within the first minute im already distracted by something else, than something distracts me from that. my mood swings are completely crazy. i have very intense emotions, much more intense than normal. im ALWAYS losing EVERYTHING so im always looking for my stuff, than as soon as i find one thing... i find out another thing is missing and ive gotta search for that. i feel like a total lunatic. like ive lost my mind. literally. i constantly have nightmares and wake up yelling. im very paranoid. sometimes i wonder if im skitzaphrenic. but i DONT constantly hear voices and talk back to them. i cant focus on anything ever. it takes me half the day to drive to the store down the road and grab a few things. i feel so beyond dumb. like my mind is not there anymore. i dont have the money to see a psychiatrist right now. can anyone relate? ideas whats wrong with me? how to help?