Nah. It’s a thing. Really.Feels oddly positive to have gotten over needing to be good.
And it means the opposite of what most people take it as. Because it shifts from staying where you’re at, because practicing in order to GET good is too embarrassing to handle/manage/contemplate… to so. bound. and. determined. to. BE. good… that the embarrassment/self loathing/perfectionistic “never try, never fail”/and all the rest that floods in with the need to be good? Only surfaces from time to time, instead of as a shadow self constantly there.
It’s an art thing.
And it means you’re growing as an artist.
The “need to be good” supersedes “wanting to be good, but not as much as not wanting to do the work” to get there. Feeling crummy replaced with feeling determined.
When this shift happens? It means you don’t need to be good to START, but need to be good to STOP.
It’s a toooootal world view shift. And it’s a lovely thing to revel in. (Right before throwing the sketchbook at the wall and glaring at it. <<< Not joking. Pissed off, embarrassed, etc. will still happen. It just won’t stop you. Ever again. Because now? Stopping happens when you’re satisfied.
Ah. Done. …NEXT!
“I want to but I can’t so I won’t.”