I got out!

[Teasel]

Kinda just wanted to say sorry sometimes, well fairly often nowadays, I just can't find my words to reply properly. Like I loved reading your reply to me @ladee But when I come to reply the words just get jammed up and I can't get em out. It does bother me and I worry I seem rude or aloof.

I've seen stuff about burning man and it looks so cool. I couldn't hack it either tho me, I'm just terrible in the heat, England's too hot for me let alone the desert

What's the renaissance fair? I tried googling it but not sure I found the right thing.

Yesterday I was back to suicidal ideation. I feel so stuck. Wish it weren't so hard to find somewhere to live.

 

[ladee]

It's ok T. I know there is a 'crash' that comes after you've allowed yourself to have some fun. It's ok. Hope this makes sense, but we 'talk without words' sometimes. I get it.

You are walking a road without much support and a lot of unknowns. Discovering and not always having the words for it. I get that. I'm there a lot myself with rebuilding my life now.

Maybe you are being given a little more time to get more steady before you find your new home. Just something to think about. But hey, you know I'm a little nuts right now so please ignore what is not helpful. I promise to not take it personally.

Sending hugs to put in a jar and take as needed.

 

[Teasel]

I can't seem to stop crying.

Thanks @ladee

Don't think it's a crash so much as returning to my life situation.

I'm not being given more time to get steady either.


Very much appreciate your kindness tho.

 

[Teasel]

The autistic T, turned out not to be a T.
Turned out she just teaches people about autism.

Really I shouldn't see her anymore.

 

[ladee]

You don't feel it would benefit you to learn from her?

I know once again you are disappointed. I'm sorry T. If a hug will help I'm sending one.

 

[Teasel]

We've already run through the program they offer. She's a lovely lady and I can tell she feels sorry for me and doesn't want to hurt my feelings so she'll see me now and then but she isn't a therapist and we've run out of things to talk about. Kind of feeling I should be the adult.

She's asked me if I want to help run an autistic social, which is very kind of her. I'll certainly consider it.

Head's not in the best place. Maybe I'm overly wanting to withdraw n feel sorry for myself.

 

[Teasel]

I keep finding myself thinking I should delete all my facebook friends because we aren't really friends. I don't think my head is in a good space.

 

[Movingforward10]

Hope you’re doing ok @Teasel

 

[Survivor3]

@Teasel it's best not to make important decisions whilst angry or upset. Wouldn't helping run a autism social group be beneficial to you? Structure and helping people with similar problems, peer support from work colleagues?

 

[Lumos]

Hope you're okay @Teasel

 

[Defaultxlove]

Sending good thoughts your way. Miss you around here.

 

[AnD]

Hugs and love to you