Ah... I've been there. dreaming about the ways I would deal with himSorry that happened. My abuser lives in my neighborhood too and I see him occasionally. Never easy. My brain dreams about all the ways I would deal with him if he were close to me. It does get easier—exposure therapy—but it just sucks, no way around it—I feel you.
i respectfully disagree, emily. awareness of what was actually happening in the here and now while in the grips of a trigger event is a major step forward.Guess it made me realise I am no closer to dealing with these things. ugg.