Hi I'm new...I have no "official" diagnosis of ptsd but I feel pretty sure I do...My first marriage of 10 yrs was abusive but I've been in a 2nd marriage for 25 yrs that is very good. I always feel detached from everything. I think I put on a good show but nothing is real to me. I have no goals or feel I want to strive for anything. I have many fears- anything that makes me vulnerable whether legitimate or not I get anxious. Even now I get fearful of my husband's reactions to what I do even though I know he won't react as my ex did. I do have the startle reaction and such a feeling of detachment. Few things give me pleasure. The poor concentration is an issue...I freaked when I watched Shindler's List as there was a scene in it that took me back to an incident with my ex - I couldn't finish the movie. I'm a nurse and read an article on ptsd and realized I very well could have it...It's been so long- I'm not sure what I should do. I think my facade is starting to come apart- so I'm not sure where to go ...Any advice appreciated.:frown: