In my own experience? The 2 main reasons arewhy is it so hard to get help
Nothing to apologize for. In fact, I think you can be proud of yourself for reaching out. The times we are most in need of help often turn out to be the times that asking for help, or telling anyone how you feel...that can start to seem impossible to do. I'm glad it sounds like you're a bit on the other side of it, now.