Well, it has finally happened! I've lost my temper BIG TIME and got into a cussing-shouting match with one of my neighbors. It is a long drawn out story-- to involved to get into detail. But I lost control. First time since my "breakdown" in 1997. It has me very unsteady and panicky and full of anxiety. I live in an apartment complex and always have! I have never had a problem with any neighbor. But tonight was a real pisser!!!! I was actually screaming at this woman and her grown daughter. Screaming and cussing which really is not me at all. This really has me unnerved. I can't seem to come down from this. It is not any type of high and it is not any type of " boy that was cool"!!! It is unnerving and I'm extremely unsettled. None of my learned techniques is working. Mom ask what she could do or what she should not do in helping me and I could not even offer her an answer except for her to just keep watching her movie I lost control and I DO NOT like the feeling at all.