mumstheword
MyPTSD Pro
It's not that I'm not grateful to, no longer be a homeless person, it's just that, since I've lived in Community housing, I've had a lot of sketchy and not-up-to-standard tenancy managers and treatment.
I used to feel very demoralized and frightened, shamed and disempowered when they came at me, with their systemic (their own sketchy org. culture) shitey treatment, but, in the last year, I just had enough and I started standing up for myself, via emails and reminding them of tenancy and organizational policy, that they are in violation of.
And today, I had to do it again, and I'm pleased with myself.
I am no longer afraid. I'm psychologically, intellectually and emotionally equipped to advocate for myself and/or to go out and access advocacy, if I need to, with my housing providers. I did a stack of research, to, really, get my head around policy, and my own rights and their responsibilites and I can call them on it, when I need to now.
All I want, is to be treated like an equal, with the respect afforded to all citizens, but, I think, partly, because of the reputation of my "high crime" town, my own disabilities, that are on show, at times, and the culture within the organization; my housing providers are repeatedly attempting draconian measures, neglecting their own duty of care, in regards to maintenance, and failing to give mandated notice re; turning up and inspections, overstepping with privacy and our rights to "reasonable peace" and failing to afford us tenants the dignity of being treated with equal respect. I do think there are discriminatory factors at play.
Phew, that was a mouthful of a sentence! But, seriously, it does feel good to have conquered this awful-feeling dynamic, that I found incredibly dysregulating for many years. :-) .
I am now kick-arse at the linguistically-savvy emails, that explicitly insist on fair and due process and treatment.
I used to feel very demoralized and frightened, shamed and disempowered when they came at me, with their systemic (their own sketchy org. culture) shitey treatment, but, in the last year, I just had enough and I started standing up for myself, via emails and reminding them of tenancy and organizational policy, that they are in violation of.
And today, I had to do it again, and I'm pleased with myself.
I am no longer afraid. I'm psychologically, intellectually and emotionally equipped to advocate for myself and/or to go out and access advocacy, if I need to, with my housing providers. I did a stack of research, to, really, get my head around policy, and my own rights and their responsibilites and I can call them on it, when I need to now.
All I want, is to be treated like an equal, with the respect afforded to all citizens, but, I think, partly, because of the reputation of my "high crime" town, my own disabilities, that are on show, at times, and the culture within the organization; my housing providers are repeatedly attempting draconian measures, neglecting their own duty of care, in regards to maintenance, and failing to give mandated notice re; turning up and inspections, overstepping with privacy and our rights to "reasonable peace" and failing to afford us tenants the dignity of being treated with equal respect. I do think there are discriminatory factors at play.
Phew, that was a mouthful of a sentence! But, seriously, it does feel good to have conquered this awful-feeling dynamic, that I found incredibly dysregulating for many years. :-) .
I am now kick-arse at the linguistically-savvy emails, that explicitly insist on fair and due process and treatment.