Undiagnosed I think i need to start here.

Hello.

I'm here because I'm finding it unusually difficult to keep pretending that I'm okay.
Like I can't/won't find the reset button for my mind that gives me enough time to prepare my skillet and continue buzzing away with the rest of the bees.
It's never been this bad. And it's glaringly happening in front of people now. Before I can feel it coming on and I can choose to deal with it in that moment or save it for home.
Now, like I said, its happening all the time whether I am alone or not. Only that when I'm alone, it's much worse.

I'm undiagnosed.
I feel strongly that I have cptsd.
I'm here because I need to try something different because I'm in unknown mental territory. I'm so, so exhausted mentally, physically, emotionally.
It's only by the grace of God that I can find peace and shelter.
This is the first time I've posted/shared/spoken about what I'm going through and what I have gone through.
I don't have any expectations. I don't want to burden or become dependent. I just need another person to momentarily reply. I would appreciate it very much. Thank you.
 

Sideways

Moderator
I'm here because I need to try something different because I'm in unknown mental territory. I'm so, so exhausted mentally, physically, emotionally.
Welcome to the forum - these are excellent reasons to use this place as a recovery resource.

Spend some time checking out the different areas of the forum and get a feel for how the place works, what it can offer, and what it can't offer. The Community Constitution is a very helpful, short read (scroll down) and there's some brilliant articles on all things ptsd (scroll up).

This place isn't a crisis support - and I'm probably sending this message from an entirely different country than you're in. If you need crisis support, please reach out to a local helpline, your local hospital, or your therapist.

With that said, welcome again. The crowd here have been a cornerstone in my healing. Wouldn't be where I currently am without them.
 

Movingforward10

MyPTSD Pro
Welcome! You're in good company here.

Hope your first post helps bring you some relief.

How you are feeling and how it is impacting your life reasonates with me.
There is no burdening anyone on here. It's a supportive place where people genuinely want to hear from others and learn from each other.
 
Welcome! You're in good company here.

Hope your first post helps bring you some relief.

How you are feeling and how it is impacting your life reasonates with me.
There is no burdening anyone on here. It's a supportive place where people genuinely want to hear from others and learn from each other.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read my anguish. I really appreciate your sensitivity and empathy.
I do feel better after posting. Ordinarily, I would just journal. But I guess I wanted to be seen and found.
Thank you for your empathy. Your choice of words made me feel not so alone.
 

arfie

MyPTSD Pro
hello saint george. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

to my psycho senses, feeling not so alone is the pivotal diff between "just jounaling" and sharing within an open forum and/or live support group. both help me focusor and find solutions for my anxieties of the day, but the added step of sharing opens the door to the healing magics of support, reality checks and the courage to drop the pretense of being things i am not. an ugly truth is much easier to remediate than the prettiest of masks and lies.

keep writing it out. keep sharing. your answers are in there. gentle support while you sort.
welcome aboard.
 

ladee

MyPTSD Pro
Welcome. You have landed in a place full of people who understand. Like @Sideways said, explore the forum. There isn't much that isn't talked about here. Shared, and validated and supported.

I can't imagine where I would be without the people here. Scary thought. Hope you find it as helpful as I have.
 

Elizabeth 86

New Here
Hello.

I'm here because I'm finding it unusually difficult to keep pretending that I'm okay.
Like I can't/won't find the reset button for my mind that gives me enough time to prepare my skillet and continue buzzing away with the rest of the bees.
It's never been this bad. And it's glaringly happening in front of people now. Before I can feel it coming on and I can choose to deal with it in that moment or save it for home.
Now, like I said, its happening all the time whether I am alone or not. Only that when I'm alone, it's much worse.

I'm undiagnosed.
I feel strongly that I have cptsd.
I'm here because I need to try something different because I'm in unknown mental territory. I'm so, so exhausted mentally, physically, emotionally.
It's only by the grace of God that I can find peace and shelter.
This is the first time I've posted/shared/spoken about what I'm going through and what I have gone through.
I don't have any expectations. I don't want to burden or become dependent. I just need another person to momentarily reply. I would appreciate it very much. Thank you.
Hello Saint George!

Welcome. It takes a lot of courage to post about what you are going thru..I'm 35 and have been struggling for years and today was my first post to the forum.

It's no burden. We are stronger together!

Liz
 
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