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I'm going crazy.
Guys, I couldn't take it anymore and I tried to make amends by telling my father.... I just posted before talking about my guilt and everything in detail. I broke down by my father and he tells me it's not true?? I told him how could he have known, why did I suddenly remember all of this in so much detail??? What the hell/!!! He said he was molested by his own aunt and there was a small age gap between them... It was like 10 years and she had to take care of him after school.
When I was young my dad used to drink a lot.. He said he must have said everything while he was drunk. I don't remember him abusing me when he was drunk, I used to throw out all his drink to make him stop.. Whatever I thought I had a flashback of was what happened to him.
I can't believe this. I don't know what to think of this. He said my brother didn't live with us then because my brother stayed with his mother for a few years when they were separated ,bjt why is it so detailed? My father said he would've known because my (ex) step mother never left my siblings and I alone. I admit I remembered something and it disturbed me so I googled it... But I don't know if I filled in the memories with what I read. My sister (2 years younger) and I are the only girls in our family and I have an older brother, there's a 8 year gap...they're my full siblings and my younger brother is only my half sibling but I see him as a full blood sibling. I know my big bro wouldn't have done anything to me..
I can't believe it. I don't know what to do wirh this information. I thought he was lying about my brother not living with us.... He wasn't lying l, I spoken to my brothers mother( she was my step mom, long story) and she said she and my brother didn't stay with us when I was that age because they separated. Did I take my father's memories and change it to my own?? I just remembered something small, so I tried to fill in as much as I could. Why did my memories feel like I did it? Is there something wrong with me? Please help? I told him about my hypersexuality and he said he was shocked, it was his fault for not protecting me.
What do I do? Everything feels so real... I thought these memories were mine. It affected me so badly and I told my bf too... Do I tell my bf the truth? That I made it up? I'm relieved that I didn't do anything to my brother... I hope he's doing okay still. Im glad I didn't tell him, what if he got tormented by what I told him?. Do I get a therapist?? I'm scared they're gonna think I'm delusional for making this up
Guys, I couldn't take it anymore and I tried to make amends by telling my father.... I just posted before talking about my guilt and everything in detail. I broke down by my father and he tells me it's not true?? I told him how could he have known, why did I suddenly remember all of this in so much detail??? What the hell/!!! He said he was molested by his own aunt and there was a small age gap between them... It was like 10 years and she had to take care of him after school.
When I was young my dad used to drink a lot.. He said he must have said everything while he was drunk. I don't remember him abusing me when he was drunk, I used to throw out all his drink to make him stop.. Whatever I thought I had a flashback of was what happened to him.
I can't believe this. I don't know what to think of this. He said my brother didn't live with us then because my brother stayed with his mother for a few years when they were separated ,bjt why is it so detailed? My father said he would've known because my (ex) step mother never left my siblings and I alone. I admit I remembered something and it disturbed me so I googled it... But I don't know if I filled in the memories with what I read. My sister (2 years younger) and I are the only girls in our family and I have an older brother, there's a 8 year gap...they're my full siblings and my younger brother is only my half sibling but I see him as a full blood sibling. I know my big bro wouldn't have done anything to me..
I can't believe it. I don't know what to do wirh this information. I thought he was lying about my brother not living with us.... He wasn't lying l, I spoken to my brothers mother( she was my step mom, long story) and she said she and my brother didn't stay with us when I was that age because they separated. Did I take my father's memories and change it to my own?? I just remembered something small, so I tried to fill in as much as I could. Why did my memories feel like I did it? Is there something wrong with me? Please help? I told him about my hypersexuality and he said he was shocked, it was his fault for not protecting me.
What do I do? Everything feels so real... I thought these memories were mine. It affected me so badly and I told my bf too... Do I tell my bf the truth? That I made it up? I'm relieved that I didn't do anything to my brother... I hope he's doing okay still. Im glad I didn't tell him, what if he got tormented by what I told him?. Do I get a therapist?? I'm scared they're gonna think I'm delusional for making this up
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