I suggest that you tell your therapist this today! Do not wait, because you might just follow through in a moment of depression if you get the chance. if you dont have a therapist, call a hotline, a dear friend and go to the hopital emergency room to get help. Don't wait.
Thank you for your answers.
My T has been aware of this for a while as have two of my friends. I am on meds and we are trying new meds. I have been having these awaking thoughts and images for almost 1 year if not longer. I really would like them to go away. Thankfully they are short lived in the morning.
Glad to hear you have some support with this. I don't have the death feelings but, I am always at my worst in the morning and sometimes have the worst of the feelings wash over me right when I wake up.
My only other experience with anything like this was pre-PTSD. If my iron was low, I would experience an awful feeling of depression (and I wasn't depressed any other time) right upon waking that would soon go away. If I started my supplement again this wouldn't happen.