Justmehere
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Some people write or say “my abuser” or “my rapist” and it makes sense as a function of lanague, but I refuse to own the abusers and rapists as mine.
I’m struggling with displaced anger about one of the abusers I have encountered in life. I was able to shift it for a moment, and actually felt anger at the rapist... and I pulled up his address (he was convicted of some of his crimes and is in the criminal justice system) and wrote a letter to him. I never gave any victim impact statement. I’m angry at all his enablers too, but it’s not wise to contact them about it. He got a light sentence for his acts but he still can’t get near me.
My letter was very short. I wished he would live a very long life filled with guilt and shame and terror about what he had done to so many. (He hurt quite a few.) I insulted the size of his dick too. Eh. It was that or a long list of worse insults. It was not super crass but it was not professional either.
I signed it “one of your victims.”
I’m seriously thinking of sending it, with no return address. I called the proper corrections dept and they had no qualms about it. I have no expectations it will affect anything, I don’t want a response and if he did I would run with it to court to get his sentence lengthened so fast...
I may not be thinking about this clearly. I should probably burn it. I want to send it. After I wrote it and put it in an envelope, I felt a rush of relief. That worries me about me.
Damn it, I’m pissed. Bad idea to send it?
I’m struggling with displaced anger about one of the abusers I have encountered in life. I was able to shift it for a moment, and actually felt anger at the rapist... and I pulled up his address (he was convicted of some of his crimes and is in the criminal justice system) and wrote a letter to him. I never gave any victim impact statement. I’m angry at all his enablers too, but it’s not wise to contact them about it. He got a light sentence for his acts but he still can’t get near me.
My letter was very short. I wished he would live a very long life filled with guilt and shame and terror about what he had done to so many. (He hurt quite a few.) I insulted the size of his dick too. Eh. It was that or a long list of worse insults. It was not super crass but it was not professional either.
I signed it “one of your victims.”
I’m seriously thinking of sending it, with no return address. I called the proper corrections dept and they had no qualms about it. I have no expectations it will affect anything, I don’t want a response and if he did I would run with it to court to get his sentence lengthened so fast...
I may not be thinking about this clearly. I should probably burn it. I want to send it. After I wrote it and put it in an envelope, I felt a rush of relief. That worries me about me.
Damn it, I’m pissed. Bad idea to send it?