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I've been spending time away from my wife and kids at my parents working with their caregivers. Both are now on hospice as of last week. We had an incident with my dad where the caregivers and I thought he was going to pass right in front of us. He was in extreme distress.
I was focused the whole time doing what needed to be done etc. But now my PTSD fight or flight is raging. I haven't been this bad in a long time. Almost everything I hear/conversation I have I react as if it's aggression, and want to attack the aggressor with overwhelming force. (Ie start an argument that may go really bad). Family, strangers etc. and no amount of meditation, exercise, etc seems to be helping.
Any ideas? medicinals are out because I don't want to mix anything else with my current meds, especially the way I am right now. Last night I woke up because of all the tension in my back and neck.
Maybe I just need to vent some. IDK, tried talking with my wife but it didn't go too well. Doesn't help that a trigger for her is me being here without her. IDK, can't stop the caregiving, can't stop the reactions, feels like a wicked hamster wheel, which I just want to get off, but it's electric and keeps spinning faster.. thanks for listening.
I was focused the whole time doing what needed to be done etc. But now my PTSD fight or flight is raging. I haven't been this bad in a long time. Almost everything I hear/conversation I have I react as if it's aggression, and want to attack the aggressor with overwhelming force. (Ie start an argument that may go really bad). Family, strangers etc. and no amount of meditation, exercise, etc seems to be helping.
Any ideas? medicinals are out because I don't want to mix anything else with my current meds, especially the way I am right now. Last night I woke up because of all the tension in my back and neck.
Maybe I just need to vent some. IDK, tried talking with my wife but it didn't go too well. Doesn't help that a trigger for her is me being here without her. IDK, can't stop the caregiving, can't stop the reactions, feels like a wicked hamster wheel, which I just want to get off, but it's electric and keeps spinning faster.. thanks for listening.