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The 21st was my anniversary. Ten years ago there was an amazing party in Hawaii with close friends and family, the funnest 4 days ever.
Unfortunately there was a groom.
The end of the 4days in Maui marked the beginning of the worst decade in my life. Perhaps darkness was set in motion by that cruel man I married, misrepresented and merciless. Post divorce a short year and a half later, my relations with men worsened, more and more, leading to the multiple assaults.
Regardless, I have come to know evil, suffering and pain to a degree I never before knew. Many lessons have been learned and unlearned as the years have unfolded.
But it is MY ANNIVERSARY, marking the end of a chapter and the beginning of newness.
I am not a tattoo person but I need something that impacts me to mark this monumentous event. I need scars outside as a small representation of scars inside .I think I have settled on one of the most profound movies I have ever seen : "The Diving Bell and the Butterfly" with a single butterfly nearby..
If you haven't seen it, its about the true story of a man that has a rare disease and one day, one moment, becomes completely paralyzed only able to move his eye lid. He dictated the book by the movement of his left eyelid. I mean JFC, REALLY?
Really.
He realizes his existence fluctuates between a diving bell and a butterfly, all he has is the inner journey.
I saw this as a screener giving by the academy when I used to be able to vote for the awards. I had Giardia at the time but didn't know it, I was just beginning my departure into clinical depression, an early phase of my mental, emotional and physical decline.
I seem to not be able to control my physical and emotional decline, but I constantly remind myself to let my butterfly soar, the perps cannot control my mind.
Unfortunately there was a groom.
The end of the 4days in Maui marked the beginning of the worst decade in my life. Perhaps darkness was set in motion by that cruel man I married, misrepresented and merciless. Post divorce a short year and a half later, my relations with men worsened, more and more, leading to the multiple assaults.
Regardless, I have come to know evil, suffering and pain to a degree I never before knew. Many lessons have been learned and unlearned as the years have unfolded.
But it is MY ANNIVERSARY, marking the end of a chapter and the beginning of newness.
I am not a tattoo person but I need something that impacts me to mark this monumentous event. I need scars outside as a small representation of scars inside .I think I have settled on one of the most profound movies I have ever seen : "The Diving Bell and the Butterfly" with a single butterfly nearby..
If you haven't seen it, its about the true story of a man that has a rare disease and one day, one moment, becomes completely paralyzed only able to move his eye lid. He dictated the book by the movement of his left eyelid. I mean JFC, REALLY?
Really.
He realizes his existence fluctuates between a diving bell and a butterfly, all he has is the inner journey.
I saw this as a screener giving by the academy when I used to be able to vote for the awards. I had Giardia at the time but didn't know it, I was just beginning my departure into clinical depression, an early phase of my mental, emotional and physical decline.
I seem to not be able to control my physical and emotional decline, but I constantly remind myself to let my butterfly soar, the perps cannot control my mind.