Seeking_Nirvana
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I was denied disability again and this really added fuel to the current issue of being molested.
SS told me I had 10 days to get my medical records from my current psych doctor and denied me within 5 days of sending the letter, without those records. I will be calling them in the morning with an earful.
The nurse at my doctors office wouldn't fill my prescription on Friday. I had an appointment with my psychiatrists Friday, and he called in sick and was to refill my meds that day.
I went there to pick up my medication at 4:30 and she told me she couldn't get a doctor to sign for it. She had 4 -5 hours to find a doctor in that office to sign for my medication, and this is the 3rd time she has done this to me, and I'm ready to rip her head off. However, she is like six feet tall and probably weighs 200 pounds *Yikes* I will be asking for it if I go after her.
She doesn't like me (or anybody for that matter) She is rude and an angry person in general, with power over the mentally ill.
I've been plotting against her for the past 3 days and this is one of the issues that I had to overcome and has taken me a lot of years to do. I used to be a very vengeful person but learned to let things go and have come a long way in doing that.
Now I'm on a mission to find one of my uncles who turned my family against me, and tell him off. (Not the one who molested me)
I'm getting ready to let the anger take over and it's not looking good. Something triggered me very bad for me to seek revenge on two people when I stopped that behavior along time ago.
I sure hope this feeling subsides before I bump into either one of them.
I cant pinpoint what triggered me into these thoughts of revenge. I get very mean and things will get ugly. I need some help with this but I'm not sure who can help me.
No Peace here!
Tammy
SS told me I had 10 days to get my medical records from my current psych doctor and denied me within 5 days of sending the letter, without those records. I will be calling them in the morning with an earful.
The nurse at my doctors office wouldn't fill my prescription on Friday. I had an appointment with my psychiatrists Friday, and he called in sick and was to refill my meds that day.
I went there to pick up my medication at 4:30 and she told me she couldn't get a doctor to sign for it. She had 4 -5 hours to find a doctor in that office to sign for my medication, and this is the 3rd time she has done this to me, and I'm ready to rip her head off. However, she is like six feet tall and probably weighs 200 pounds *Yikes* I will be asking for it if I go after her.
She doesn't like me (or anybody for that matter) She is rude and an angry person in general, with power over the mentally ill.
I've been plotting against her for the past 3 days and this is one of the issues that I had to overcome and has taken me a lot of years to do. I used to be a very vengeful person but learned to let things go and have come a long way in doing that.
Now I'm on a mission to find one of my uncles who turned my family against me, and tell him off. (Not the one who molested me)
I'm getting ready to let the anger take over and it's not looking good. Something triggered me very bad for me to seek revenge on two people when I stopped that behavior along time ago.
I sure hope this feeling subsides before I bump into either one of them.
I cant pinpoint what triggered me into these thoughts of revenge. I get very mean and things will get ugly. I need some help with this but I'm not sure who can help me.
No Peace here!
Tammy