siniang
Policy Enforcement
So, some sort of "I'm in danger" core belief is pretty typical for PTSD, as far as I understand. Many of you still, at one point or another, believe that a past abuser is coming for you, and similar versions.
Looking back, for quite a while I actually was totally expecting that *he* will wait for me and get me (for example on my way home) because (I thought) he thought that maybe I did actually recognize him or enough details after all (and hence put him in jeopardy of being found) or at least observe me (to make sure I don't) or maybe even come back to finish whatever he was trying to do.
With time, aka years, this faded, when nothing of the sort ever actually happened. But at the same time I developed a more vague, more general sense of being in danger/not being safe (as my T has pointed out -- because I never recognized it as such, I didn't make the connection and really actually still don't -- I don't feel like I'm "in actual danger" in the literal sense). Major health anxiety. Accidents. Ending up in random (mass) shootings. I've developed a very deep core belief where I'm absolutely convinced I'll die young.
But, I don't keep this reduced to myself. I have the same fears for my parents, my husband, and my pets.
This might just be my GAD speaking, hence I was wondering if anyone else experiences this "extended" sense of being in danger, which includes not only you but people close to you. Kind of like an extended version of "self".
And how you deal with this. Because THAT in particular is feeling like it's driving me insane. Mostly because I absolutely cannot logic it away.
Looking back, for quite a while I actually was totally expecting that *he* will wait for me and get me (for example on my way home) because (I thought) he thought that maybe I did actually recognize him or enough details after all (and hence put him in jeopardy of being found) or at least observe me (to make sure I don't) or maybe even come back to finish whatever he was trying to do.
With time, aka years, this faded, when nothing of the sort ever actually happened. But at the same time I developed a more vague, more general sense of being in danger/not being safe (as my T has pointed out -- because I never recognized it as such, I didn't make the connection and really actually still don't -- I don't feel like I'm "in actual danger" in the literal sense). Major health anxiety. Accidents. Ending up in random (mass) shootings. I've developed a very deep core belief where I'm absolutely convinced I'll die young.
But, I don't keep this reduced to myself. I have the same fears for my parents, my husband, and my pets.
This might just be my GAD speaking, hence I was wondering if anyone else experiences this "extended" sense of being in danger, which includes not only you but people close to you. Kind of like an extended version of "self".
And how you deal with this. Because THAT in particular is feeling like it's driving me insane. Mostly because I absolutely cannot logic it away.