hi--this is my first time posting here...i have no idea where to begin...well, here it goes. i am originally from one of the numerous parts of the world ravaged by war, and now (well, for the past 4 years or so) i've really been having a tough time...the memories of the shelling and shooting and various other aspects of war are flooding back--i have flashbacks and used to have nightmares (now i just don't sleep much--i don't think i even get to REM)...it has reached a point where i can't concentrate...i snap at people easily etc. i've had some counselling and am just in the process of finding somoene else to talk to...nobody has actually officially called it ptsd but they have suggested emdr etc. (were also quick to suggest medication) so i'm pretty sure that it is ptsd...my throat is dry and tightening as i'm writing this...i have trouble with things that remind me of my childhood in a war zone (footage of war; war movies; even halloween--because of the firecrackers--all sudden, loud noises startle me easily) even with all of that, i feel very lucky that i'm alive and out of danger...most of my family members are alive still...while there were a lot of scary moments, i still feel i have it easy...especially compared to what other people (in this particular conflict, but also in other ones across the globe) have gone through or will go through...most of the time i just feel like i have no right to complain. anyway, this stuff is interferring with my life... it's so embarrassing when i have to ask profs to extend paper deadlines etc...even though most have been pretty understanding. anyway, i should head to bed and try to get some sleep...i'm sorry to babble so much.