Have read this site for quite awhile...hesitated joining because I am old and feel beyond help. Have had many traumas in my life but only recently diagnosed with ptsd. Have had numerous dealings with mental health but misdiagnosed and went the gammit with the million drugs and shock treatments...that was in itself traumatic. Six years out of a marriage with a sadistic psychopath, but i am not doing well. The diagnosis at least explained to me some of the problems I have had {still do} and the poor decisions I made in my life. Recently made an appointment with a trauma counselor. but am very apprehensive after the other experiences I had. But here is the bottom line...if I do not do something I am going to die. Have no real support system and am sinking fast...it scares me...I have had many awful times in my life but do not remember ever feeling so lost.