JGTRG
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My experience of pshycological abuse and a life a no love or compassion is starting to take its toll on me. If someone genuine, someone who shows love scares me, I close up, I panic, I question, I doubt, I sabotage. Yet, I want someone to share my life with so bad. I’m not desperate because I can’t be alone, being alone isn’t an issue for me.
If I miss someone or start to need something, it just reminds me of my childhood, it makes me feel like I’m in the wrong for needing something, and it makes me feel like a vulnerable little child full of fear, fear of disappointment.
The thought of dating? No. I don’t even want to. I do however want to get to know someone, speak often, yet my attempts to do this are next to none.
How can one have hope of finding someone when all the above happens? It’s showing no signs of changing and constantly reminds me of how ‘damaged’
If I miss someone or start to need something, it just reminds me of my childhood, it makes me feel like I’m in the wrong for needing something, and it makes me feel like a vulnerable little child full of fear, fear of disappointment.
The thought of dating? No. I don’t even want to. I do however want to get to know someone, speak often, yet my attempts to do this are next to none.
How can one have hope of finding someone when all the above happens? It’s showing no signs of changing and constantly reminds me of how ‘damaged’