JSustaining
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Hello.
I am new to this site.
I am in my early sixties. From birth, per what I have been told by older siblings, through thirteen years of age, I experienced significant neglect, abuse, trauma, as well as divorce of those who were supposed to be parents. Negative energies continued from those who could have been parents for many years. I was also restricted from interacting with peripheral family, resulting in social interaction issues.
I was taught that I am inadequate, useless, worthless with no value. Thus the configuration of this being (CNS) is such that I am taxed, encumbered, impeded, distorted, and imbalanced, every day.
Emotions are completely suppressed and hidden, as I am unable to connect with any one, any thing, or any activity, such as a hobby.
'Tis a major task to maintain, suppress, as well as attempt to learn. When alone, tears have flowed, as I acknowledge that this entire human experience, the inability to experience any level of personal success or security, and all of the distorted actions and the impact that they have had upon others, is a result of the CNS configuration of this being. I utilize this terminology as I sense there is segment of this being that is awareness (I), that has little if any influence upon the actions of this being. Perhaps there are those that can relate.
I have pursued many practices, counseling, therapy, medications during a period of many years.
I became aware of cPTSD unassisted by the medical community approximately four years ago.
Perhaps this introduction can start a dialogue, allowing I to become aware of what practices or methodologies have been utilized and are useful and helpful in coping to address an individual being without purpose, without peace, without balance, without confidence, without self acceptance, every day.
I thank you for the opportunity.
JSustaining
I am new to this site.
I am in my early sixties. From birth, per what I have been told by older siblings, through thirteen years of age, I experienced significant neglect, abuse, trauma, as well as divorce of those who were supposed to be parents. Negative energies continued from those who could have been parents for many years. I was also restricted from interacting with peripheral family, resulting in social interaction issues.
I was taught that I am inadequate, useless, worthless with no value. Thus the configuration of this being (CNS) is such that I am taxed, encumbered, impeded, distorted, and imbalanced, every day.
Emotions are completely suppressed and hidden, as I am unable to connect with any one, any thing, or any activity, such as a hobby.
'Tis a major task to maintain, suppress, as well as attempt to learn. When alone, tears have flowed, as I acknowledge that this entire human experience, the inability to experience any level of personal success or security, and all of the distorted actions and the impact that they have had upon others, is a result of the CNS configuration of this being. I utilize this terminology as I sense there is segment of this being that is awareness (I), that has little if any influence upon the actions of this being. Perhaps there are those that can relate.
I have pursued many practices, counseling, therapy, medications during a period of many years.
I became aware of cPTSD unassisted by the medical community approximately four years ago.
Perhaps this introduction can start a dialogue, allowing I to become aware of what practices or methodologies have been utilized and are useful and helpful in coping to address an individual being without purpose, without peace, without balance, without confidence, without self acceptance, every day.
I thank you for the opportunity.
JSustaining