TheDeepestScar
Learning
I don't know why, well I usually am on edge anyways but today has been especially bad, everything has been making me startle. My husband coming around a corner, standing behind me, sudden noises...everything.
I have no idea what is going on, I know I had a nightmare last night about someone assaulting me, it's funny I have these dreams of someone assaulting me sexually but they never have a face. I know my ex husband assaulted me in that way, I even asked my therapist about something he did to me when our relationship began and she did say it was molestation. My mind wasn't exactly mature regarding that matter. I was pretty much kept shut in by my parents.
Anyways. I don't know if it's the dream affecting me startle response or if its just a bad day today??
I've already just gotten over a migraine an hour ago, I've been wondering for sometime if migraines can be tied to PTSD. They didn't start until 2000 and after I left not divorced but seperated from my ex. I know physical pain can be tied to PTSD but I don't know if that counts.
And with the migraines and the jumpiness, could there be something like that dream that triggered me today.
I keep looking around too, I am but I'm not paranoid that something terrible is going to happen (I hate that feeling).
I know also that I'm nervous about my upcoming psychiatry appointment on Wednesday (the city/state that I have my appointment is a trigger in and of itself for me but it's the closest VA hospital). Sometimes I think that's a stupid trigger, well I think alot of them are stupid. If such a thing is possible.
Ugh I don't know.:wall:
I have no idea what is going on, I know I had a nightmare last night about someone assaulting me, it's funny I have these dreams of someone assaulting me sexually but they never have a face. I know my ex husband assaulted me in that way, I even asked my therapist about something he did to me when our relationship began and she did say it was molestation. My mind wasn't exactly mature regarding that matter. I was pretty much kept shut in by my parents.
Anyways. I don't know if it's the dream affecting me startle response or if its just a bad day today??
I've already just gotten over a migraine an hour ago, I've been wondering for sometime if migraines can be tied to PTSD. They didn't start until 2000 and after I left not divorced but seperated from my ex. I know physical pain can be tied to PTSD but I don't know if that counts.
And with the migraines and the jumpiness, could there be something like that dream that triggered me today.
I keep looking around too, I am but I'm not paranoid that something terrible is going to happen (I hate that feeling).
I know also that I'm nervous about my upcoming psychiatry appointment on Wednesday (the city/state that I have my appointment is a trigger in and of itself for me but it's the closest VA hospital). Sometimes I think that's a stupid trigger, well I think alot of them are stupid. If such a thing is possible.
Ugh I don't know.:wall: