Introducing Myself

[Sandra Walker]

Hi.
My name is Sandra. 10 years ago, my brother and sister were killed in a road accident. For the first 6-9 months I thought I was doing ok. Then the trauma started to show, and since then I have struggled. I tried to push myself to "feel the fear and do it anyway", but instead of getting easier, it just seemed to get harder. I got so worn out just fighting the fear everyday, and for the past 2 years or so I have only travelled within walking distance of my house. I still enjoy company though, and luckily I have a few good friends who have gone out of their way to visit me and meet me "where I'm at".
In the past few months I feel that I have "turned a corner" and I am starting to make the steps to take back some of my freedom, but I think it's going to be a slow process. I would love to hear from anyone who knows what it's like to experience and overcome the fear of being too far from home.

 

[Helliepig]

Welcome to the forum, I hope it helps with your steps back to freedom
H

 

[Deleted member 11177]

Hello Sandra,
Firstly, Thank you for sharing your personal story. My name is Keith and I would like to become a friend and talk to you if you would like too. I have experienced death of loved ones first hand and offer my friendship to you.
Regards Keith.

 

[Sandra]

Welcome to the forum. Nice first name by the way. ;)

 

[Deleted member 11177]

Thank you Sandra. Nice to meet you.
I would like to talk to you about you and how you have dealt with things.
Thank you.
Keith.

 

[Sazza]

Hi Sandra and welcome :),

Glad to hear you are taking slow steps back to freedom, slow is the best way to go it doesn't happen over night and if we take things too quickly we end up further back. Sorry to hear about your losses and i hope you find support here on the forum to help with those slow steps of turning that corner.

Sazza

 

[Michele Janes]

Hi Sandra,

Welcome to the forum. I've just recently joined the site as well. I have had PTSD for a very long time. Twenty years ago I lost my sister in a car accident and six months later my brother committed suicide.

My anxiety has reached the point where I have a difficult time leaving my house. I love the outdoors, I love to go places and do all kinds of things but I'm essentially a prisoner in my home the majority of the time because my symptoms are so severe. I am seeing a therapist and am going to a dr to begin medication. Really hoping that it will help things get a little easier for me. The events of this past year in particular have been extremely difficult, throwing me into a tailspin which has turned me into a total shut-in. I hate it. :mad:

BUT, I know that I can and will improve. And you will too :tup: This site has shown me that. Take care of you and know that you've got a friend in me ;)

 

[Deaf Global Nomad]

Welcome to the forum, Sandra!

I, too, have become more and more homebound as time passes. However, now, I have found an excellent therapist who really works hard with me. I feel safe talking about anything with her. Slowly my world is becoming more and more broad. My dreams are reforming and my comfort being around people is expanding. I still crash after arriving home and sleep for days after. However my courage to work on things is better.

Do you have a therapist? Does your location provide you with other services? I am lucky that my state has lots of opportunities. We have drop in centers, even a special one for deaf people. I receive a case manager whenever I need some help with something. I have an ILS worker who comes twice a week. Recently I just requested help from an ARMHS worker. It stands for Adult Rehabilitative Mental Health Services. It is very helpful. Each person helps me with different goals. I hope you can find things like that to help you, too.

Best of luck on your journey!

 

[Froggie]

Welcome to the forum Sandra W. We are many who understand what your symptoms are doing to you... I too, like others have mentionned, was lucky to find Ts that realized that I had PTSD and sent me to a psych Dr to get adequate medication. I'm back in therapy as I had some issues lately, but I know I'm in good hands. Best of luck to you.