PreciousChild
MyPTSD Pro
I'm so triggered. The other night, I said some pretty harsh things to my bf, and I feel like he's ignoring me today because of it. I basically told him how when I first met him, he said something rude and I told him that I was thinking "F**k you, motherf***ker". I was joking. I was just conveying that I had my feelings hurt, and he asked me if that's what I was really thinking. I said no not really. But he's kind of sensitive, and has felt dejected by less. Could it be that after close to two years of being in a relationship in which he's told me that he feels like I'm his partner, he wants to move in together, I'm the "best" one, telling me I've changed how he thinks and feels, and telling me how much he loves me. Could my callous joke cause the end of the relationship?
I'm looking for a reality check. I tend to catastrophize because my sadistic dad would punish me severely for the slightest, random infractions. Right now, I'm thinking about how this one joke was a window into my real, insidious thoughts, and they've been exposed, and he sees how awful I really am. I think this is me over-dramatizing, but then again, the thought bubble of "F**k you, MF'er" was pretty harsh and by telling him, it is probably a window into how reactive I am to rude comments which he didn't realize up until now.
He hasn't responded to my texts all day. They were just images I shared, but he would normally respond.
I'm looking for a reality check. I tend to catastrophize because my sadistic dad would punish me severely for the slightest, random infractions. Right now, I'm thinking about how this one joke was a window into my real, insidious thoughts, and they've been exposed, and he sees how awful I really am. I think this is me over-dramatizing, but then again, the thought bubble of "F**k you, MF'er" was pretty harsh and by telling him, it is probably a window into how reactive I am to rude comments which he didn't realize up until now.
He hasn't responded to my texts all day. They were just images I shared, but he would normally respond.