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Hi, I'm new this is my third post. I am currently in assessment for trauma reactions, I have not gotten any type of diagnosis yet, but I'm here to give and receive support. The thing is that one of my triggers is vomiting. It might be helpful to look at my other post if you want to know more about why and blah blah. My biggest fear is that my dad is going to vomit some day from a flu or something different. I have a very real fear that I am literally going to die if that happens. I think that I am going to die from the panic and the physical feeling of panic. I was once on a streetcar with my boyfriend and some guy maybe drunk threw up, and it felt like I was actually dying I wanted to run away but froze and could not move. At some point I felt completely numb, my body is completely floppy, cant speak, and not feeling scared anymore and it felt like I was not there and that my soul had left my body and that my body was an object (haha i know it sounds crazy but this is how i felt).
My boyfriend later told me that he didn't notice anything before i kind of fell over to his side and didn't answer to him speaking to me. So my fear is that if my dad does vomit I am either going to die from panic and fear, or that i am going to be gone from my body and actually disapper forever and never come back to myself. My psychologist said that this is not possible and that i won't die or disappear. But I don't BELIVE HER!, Ok my rational brain knows it is not possible but I do have a very real fear that I am actually going to die or disappear. So can someone please explain to me why I'm not going to die or disappear. I just need some reassuranse that I'm not going to die and maybe some tips on coping skills if my dad or someone else vomits?
My boyfriend later told me that he didn't notice anything before i kind of fell over to his side and didn't answer to him speaking to me. So my fear is that if my dad does vomit I am either going to die from panic and fear, or that i am going to be gone from my body and actually disapper forever and never come back to myself. My psychologist said that this is not possible and that i won't die or disappear. But I don't BELIVE HER!, Ok my rational brain knows it is not possible but I do have a very real fear that I am actually going to die or disappear. So can someone please explain to me why I'm not going to die or disappear. I just need some reassuranse that I'm not going to die and maybe some tips on coping skills if my dad or someone else vomits?