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Message: <blockquote data-quote="grit" data-source="post: 1742543" data-attributes="member: 46894">I am not expert (gosh nooooot at all) but I do have great deal of interest in dissociation. and your quote above is right on to a point. There are dissociatitive states from driving on the highway and to extreme daydreaming to living ambient, passive, distracted way but functional, to to dissociative levels of PTSD, to its end of dissociation spectrum - DID. I even think DID has its own levels cause there are those with DID that can be functional and work and those that cannot.I sometimes feel (this is my personal opinion), a lot of people dissociate or/and split on their partners and only realized after they get divorce and then become functional friends but will never know or become aware - the reasons they broke up were not realistic but divided attention. IHMO, more people may be dissociating than can understand or admit...I even heard vertigo, migraines are symptoms of dissociation or defending dissociation. It is a very undervalued or less understand reaction to trauma, IHMO.What worked for me to know my state of dissociation and its sneakiness is this: I know when I am not. I have been to postgrad and I could only do the bulk of my work when I was integrated. No matter what is going on in my life - I would drop all and do my work when integrated cause I would not know when the dissociation will come back again. This integration experience, awareness, actualizing, cultivating, holding, testing it with others and reality - made me become super aware of the other side - the dissociation when I am still functional but again that ambient, passive, slightly distracted, slightly blunted senses, fleeting attention etc. I have quite clarity of them and this distinction makes me not fight against the dissociation but understand it and work around it. In a nutshell, my dissociation is body is here, mind is gone - this takes a huge energy to keep it or (I think risk it to go DID - I think if I was not aware of that energy being divided I could easily fall into DID - not undermining there might be genetic factors for DID as well). My integration - energy is coming from body and mind so that is why I can be highly functional and get things done. Also this is when I can easily explain my state of dissociation to my husband or therapist not when I am in it.</blockquote>

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