SeekingAfrica
Diamond Member
I am super frustrated today.
I recently did many regular things I had to- relocate back home for a bit, reset my work... taking some summertime for walks and recharging. I've been so good, and actually better than in a while. So I've been working, taking self-care time, doing chores, getting the first dose of vaccinations, actually finally having the energy to exercise regularly and read. As well as had a few very useful days. The relocation wasn't part of my original plan, but I tried to embrace it and make the best of it. The last several days were very full of things I haven't done in a while, which, I thought I handled beautifully, I adapted, and I was very proud of how everything was going.
And then today I woke up and something was off. First I had nightmares all night, no clue of what because the loan mower sound woke me so I forgot everything but the feeling of the dream. And then it was this feeling like I know things need to get done, but I can barely be anything but horizontal. Like I have 0 energy and 0 will to do anything. And everything feeling bad. The usual things I watch or read or whatever feeling like they are giving me a migraine because my head is so full of information there's no space to process any new information. I did self-massage, I indulged in my breakfast, I took something for the migraine. And still, no energy or will. It's not super depressed, it's not super anxious, it's just an absolute lack of ability to make myself do anything.
I pushed all plans to tomorrow. I tried reading out in the garden for a bit. I tried watching. I tried having a nap. I tried reorganizing my laptop, which always makes me feel better (I like organization). But I just don't have the energy to do anything for more than 15min at a time and I just want to sleep all day. I genuinely don't understand why I'm so exhausted. Might be more of mental fatigue from jamming a lot of things I haven't done in the last days combined with the physical exhaustion of getting my body back to working out daily for an hour at least? Def. not sick, and even physically I've slept plenty, I just feel like all my batteries are at under 0. ...
I recently did many regular things I had to- relocate back home for a bit, reset my work... taking some summertime for walks and recharging. I've been so good, and actually better than in a while. So I've been working, taking self-care time, doing chores, getting the first dose of vaccinations, actually finally having the energy to exercise regularly and read. As well as had a few very useful days. The relocation wasn't part of my original plan, but I tried to embrace it and make the best of it. The last several days were very full of things I haven't done in a while, which, I thought I handled beautifully, I adapted, and I was very proud of how everything was going.
And then today I woke up and something was off. First I had nightmares all night, no clue of what because the loan mower sound woke me so I forgot everything but the feeling of the dream. And then it was this feeling like I know things need to get done, but I can barely be anything but horizontal. Like I have 0 energy and 0 will to do anything. And everything feeling bad. The usual things I watch or read or whatever feeling like they are giving me a migraine because my head is so full of information there's no space to process any new information. I did self-massage, I indulged in my breakfast, I took something for the migraine. And still, no energy or will. It's not super depressed, it's not super anxious, it's just an absolute lack of ability to make myself do anything.
I pushed all plans to tomorrow. I tried reading out in the garden for a bit. I tried watching. I tried having a nap. I tried reorganizing my laptop, which always makes me feel better (I like organization). But I just don't have the energy to do anything for more than 15min at a time and I just want to sleep all day. I genuinely don't understand why I'm so exhausted. Might be more of mental fatigue from jamming a lot of things I haven't done in the last days combined with the physical exhaustion of getting my body back to working out daily for an hour at least? Def. not sick, and even physically I've slept plenty, I just feel like all my batteries are at under 0. ...