I was 5 years old and he was 6, he told me to do “playing doctor”, he made me take off clothes and touch my genitals, and he tried to put his genitals to my body by holding his genitals, but he didn’t put it. This play went through about 4 years, once I said no and he said it’s okay because we are neibors. I asked him Are neighbors closer than family? And he said yes so we can play that game. He always locked the door and made me watch outside so that parents don’t come. It seemed like he felt orgasms for he always enjoyed doing such plays. He touched my genitals, told me not to say what he did to my mom and made me touch his genitals and butt and he was just 10, and i was 9. This play happend for 4 years and I felt like it became trauma.Is this cocsa? Is this abuse? Do I seem like overacting?