Yes maybe that's more how I should've wrote it; that I need to talk about what happened to me (instead of exploring trauma). I told my previous T, but she quit and I got transferred to another T in the same practice. She knows I've been sexually abused, but we didn't talk about it. Maybe just telling her so that she knows what actually has happened and maybe she could help me connect the dots so I get less insecure about that part.I'm not sure there is a clear cut: stabilise and then talk about trauma. At least, I don't think I found/find it for myself.
Especially if you are living with the trauma in your mind. It's there. It's not going away. Sometimes saying what you are seeing and remembering is so destabilising (it makes it real by saying the words), but sometimes it is healing (finally, someone is there to hear it and witness your pain).
Essentially, it is a messy path. And you have to find your way that suits you.