This week has been the most difficult to say the least. Over the last six clients I have a been spiraling into a more depressed state that I found myself before starting therapy. They say things will get worse before they get better they do. I find myself every day watching the clock counting down the minutes until I can go to sleep. Until I can fall into this restless realm of nightmares I called sleep. When will my life be normal again? When can I claim the safety of my dreams? When will tomorrow stop affecting today? I have a very good streak of good days. Marked as manic can be easy. But the nightmares and the flashbacks are no less. I am in talk therapy and DBT therapy with a little improvement shown. I feel like a basket case.