btmsearlNH
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Even though I have had a good therapy session recently, I still find myself awake almost every night. I think the earliest I have gone to bed since my accident was around 11pm. It's now 2:15 am here and I am wide awake, with my mind racing. It'll probably be around 3am or so, like usual, that I'll go to try and get some sleep. I don't have a problem thinking about what's happened to me and I'm not getting too emotional about it. I don't think I'm really that overly upset right now. I haven't cried in days and I haven't found myself getting that "sick to my stomach" feeling either. But, I still think about what has happened. I still find myself looking at the same old pictures over and over again. I know that they don't change. I know looking at them won't make things better. I just can't seem to relax. I am on medication that is supposed to make me sleep better. It hasn't helped. My doctor has increased my dosage at every visit. Still no improvement. I have even been taking Valium along with the anti-depressant/sleep-aid (Amitriptyline) and that doesn't help. I'm thinking that maybe it's not medication that I need. There's got to be something more that I'm missing. Does anyone else have this problem? Am I crazy or is this related to the PTSD? I never had problems sleeping before my accident. It's not like I'm having nightmares and I'm afraid to go to sleep. I'm not always thinking about what happened when I'm awake at night either. It's like I'm pacing back and forth even though I'm sitting in front of the computer. I check the same websites over and over. I read the same articles over and over. My wife is sound asleep in bed and I can't get myself to go and sleep alongside her. It bothers her to wake up in the middle of the night and find that I'm not there. It bothers me too. What do I do? Do I ask the doctor for a sleeping pill? Do I have her increase my meds again? I'm trying to get myself back to work too. I haven't work since June and if I can't sleep at night, how am I going to get enough rest to work my 12 hour shifts? I'm tired, but I just can't sleep. I know that my body needs it, but I just can't seem to relax enough to sleep.
I need some advice. If anyone has experienced this or is still expereincing this, help me out. I'm just very frustrated. Thanks again. -Ben
One more note. A simple reminder that I didn't CAPITALIZE my Post would have been a much better way to show me my mistake. Locking a thread when someone is reaching out for help is not the way to run a forum. It usually late at night when I'm posting my threads. I don't always think to capitalize when I post. I've posted here more than once and the first time I'm talked to about it, my thread is locked? That's ridiculous.
I need some advice. If anyone has experienced this or is still expereincing this, help me out. I'm just very frustrated. Thanks again. -Ben
One more note. A simple reminder that I didn't CAPITALIZE my Post would have been a much better way to show me my mistake. Locking a thread when someone is reaching out for help is not the way to run a forum. It usually late at night when I'm posting my threads. I don't always think to capitalize when I post. I've posted here more than once and the first time I'm talked to about it, my thread is locked? That's ridiculous.