I haven't posted in a long time. Mostly it's fear that is keeping me from posting. I've been isolating myself more and more. I have become afraid to go out and afraid of any social situations. I'm afraid of being rejected and afraid that somehow people can see inside me. What they would see is a really scared little girl who doesn't know if something terrible is about to happen. So I isolate to feel safe. I don't know how to break out of isolation. I don't remember what it's like to feel normal. It's been over a year now that the ptsd symptoms have been controlling my life. I see a therapist and have a very very small support system. But I find myself alone more and more. I don't see light at the end of the tunnel; I only see darkness. When I first found this forum I thought it'd be good to dialogue with people who understand. I'm tired of being afraid. Tired of not knowing how to trust.
thanks for still being here.
R
thanks for still being here.
R