Hopemeanslife
Bronze Member
I’m a sexual abuse/assault survivor
I’m currently undergoing treatment for ptsd for it, they seem to think I may have it.
I can’t help to notice an awful amount of posts of confessions on this page for crimes they have committed, think that’s a bit beyond being a safe place for no judgment but that’s none of my business, I’m not really surprised really, I mean I have this awful intrusive thought most days that there is more abusers than everyone really knows, they think I’m paranoid, I’ve shared it with my counsellor; I guess it’s my idea from my experiences.
Really I don’t know how I can move forward in life living with all the things that has happened and how people decided to treat me I don’t think I can move past it and live a normal life after all, think it’s just hanging on to hope when I feel it possible, I think I may feel like this for the rest of my life and there’s nothing I can do, I try and get help but even then I’m like what is it helping; it’s just nothing seems to help it, about 15 years ago I thought to myself surely this isn’t gonna be me for the rest of my life I’m sure it’ll get better, it has to get better. No one ever really told me it would get better so I guess it never does. You know like with an accident people say you’ll be okay you just need.. but this type of thing they ask how I am knowing I will say nothing it’s all quite strange. This has been going on for far too long, it’s so draining for the last 17years.
I’m currently undergoing treatment for ptsd for it, they seem to think I may have it.
I can’t help to notice an awful amount of posts of confessions on this page for crimes they have committed, think that’s a bit beyond being a safe place for no judgment but that’s none of my business, I’m not really surprised really, I mean I have this awful intrusive thought most days that there is more abusers than everyone really knows, they think I’m paranoid, I’ve shared it with my counsellor; I guess it’s my idea from my experiences.
Really I don’t know how I can move forward in life living with all the things that has happened and how people decided to treat me I don’t think I can move past it and live a normal life after all, think it’s just hanging on to hope when I feel it possible, I think I may feel like this for the rest of my life and there’s nothing I can do, I try and get help but even then I’m like what is it helping; it’s just nothing seems to help it, about 15 years ago I thought to myself surely this isn’t gonna be me for the rest of my life I’m sure it’ll get better, it has to get better. No one ever really told me it would get better so I guess it never does. You know like with an accident people say you’ll be okay you just need.. but this type of thing they ask how I am knowing I will say nothing it’s all quite strange. This has been going on for far too long, it’s so draining for the last 17years.