I didn’t lose my job, I know exactly where it is. I know exactly how to do and I do it well but it’s not my job anymore. I thought I was okay with this, I thought I understood that the separation agreement was the best thing for both sides. But I was wrong I know I can’t work right now and would never be able to stay healthy if I went back there but for all the logic in the world right now I just hurt. I didn’t lose my job my symptoms took it from me . I don’t know if any of this makes sense. I thought I was okay that this means I can move on to better things but for tonight at least this hurts.