It’s so bad - suggestions?

[Defaultxlove]

I’m open to everything you might wanna say

People are pretty concerned about me asking questions like how do you feel and I’m like I don’t. Idk if it’s in the moment I can’t and then I realize later or whatever but I swear I feel lost in some empty space

I’m not suicidal that’s good

I’m just sunken and it’s getting stronger I know why. I have to focus on everything I lost right now for some reports

It’s killing me to think about everything at once …or even in the same week

Tips ideas compassion anything

I’m hoping by focusing and exposing I can find solutions

Just adding that the derealization is so strong idk

 

[Sideways]

The things going on for you at the moment sound pretty overwhelming. Sounds a bit like your nervous system is operating at its absolute threshold - my dissociation often starts going berko when I’m overwhelmed.

Do you have a list of things you can do for yourself that are soothing and grounding? Are you able to set aside a bit of extra time each day to do those things? Empty out the stress cup a bit and help your system calm a little?

I’m hoping by focusing and exposing

Instead of working at it, maybe go the other direction, and do the things that are just calming and grounding?

 

[arfie]

i'm applauding @Sideways' suggestion to let go of "working at it" and go the other direction. in my own early therapy, i often experienced tsunami strength emotional floods where the best i could hope for was to grab a stationary object and hang on for dear life until the inundation passed. calming and grounding tools were my lifeline. it was horrid, but at the end of the inundation, there was room, cleansing and freedom for the healing to commence.

believe in yourself, defaultx. you are doing better than it feels. at this stage, mere survival is a heroic act.
steadying support while you ride the wave. breathing with you. . .

 

[Friday]

It’s killing me to think about everything at once …or even in the same week

Borders between past and present exist… for a reason.

When they break down? So does sanity.

 

[Muttly]

I agree that sometimes soothing and calming is the right way to go. Sometimes though for me, I reached a point of dissociation where it wasn't good. When that first happened I'd end up self-harming. Eventually I developed a whole list of things that would help cope. Things like exercise, music, journaling, walking my dog, connecting with friends.

 

[Movingforward10]

I also recommend 'puttong it aside' for a bit and doing kind and self care things.

Does doing something that helps to connect with your body help? Or make it worse? Maybe some exercise or movement or singing?

I think at times of disconnect like this (this is how I am experiencing what you are saying you're going through), baby steps to connect with yourself, however slight and little, might bring some comfort and relief.

 

[hypervigilant]

If all you do today is breathe thats okay.
It's overwhelming and sometimes so all consuming but it's okay to just be, scrolling endless Pinterest interiors is my guilty pleasure and takes my mind elsewhere, so does singing, I can't remember the lyrics and think at the same time so singing the louder the better ( often in the car)works for me.
It took 30 years to create all this in my head so it's not going to unravel in a few months so it's just one foot in front of the other, the speed doesn't count as long as I'm still moving forward resting along the way is essential.

 

[abovedown]

I’m open to everything you might wanna say

People are pretty concerned about me asking questions like how do you feel and I’m like I don’t. Idk if it’s in the moment I can’t and then I realize later or whatever but I swear I feel lost in some empty space

I’m not suicidal that’s good

I’m just sunken and it’s getting stronger I know why. I have to focus on everything I lost right now for some reports

It’s killing me to think about everything at once …or even in the same week

Tips ideas compassion anything

I’m hoping by focusing and exposing I can find solutions

Just adding that the derealization is so strong idk

Did something happen lately which has caused you to feel worse?

 

[Defaultxlove]

Did something happen lately which has caused you to feel worse?

Thanks. A lot has happened and it’s okay I’ve dealt with most of it now it just feels like it’ll drain the last bit of life out of me. It sounds dramatic but I’m serious. The seizures are so annoying. I must rest rest rest

 

[abovedown]

Thanks. A lot has happened and it’s okay I’ve dealt with most of it now it just feels like it’ll drain the last bit of life out of me. It sounds dramatic but I’m serious. The seizures are so annoying. I must rest rest rest

How you can get the rest you need and get better soon