Hello all...
It's been a while since i've posted anything. I have been seeing a psychiatrist and a counsillor for CBT. I am so so so confused and scared! After the CBT I feel all optomistic and upbeat.....for about 3 hours!!!! Then something will trigger the flashbacks etc etc...and I just want to give up. I can't see an end to this pain and guilt and deisre the peace and trabquility of nothingness.
The doc's keep saying I will get better and it will take time etc etc etc....but I am alone in this. What the hell do they know...have they seen what I have seen...have they done what I have done.....NO! I don't deserve to live like this. I am so torn right now!!!! Just want the ground to swallow me up.
Crap crap crap crap!!!!!!!!!
It's been a while since i've posted anything. I have been seeing a psychiatrist and a counsillor for CBT. I am so so so confused and scared! After the CBT I feel all optomistic and upbeat.....for about 3 hours!!!! Then something will trigger the flashbacks etc etc...and I just want to give up. I can't see an end to this pain and guilt and deisre the peace and trabquility of nothingness.
The doc's keep saying I will get better and it will take time etc etc etc....but I am alone in this. What the hell do they know...have they seen what I have seen...have they done what I have done.....NO! I don't deserve to live like this. I am so torn right now!!!! Just want the ground to swallow me up.
Crap crap crap crap!!!!!!!!!