Sometimes I think I'm getting lost within myself and I don't want to be a part of the real world around me. Everything seems to set me off. I'm very focused and also very distractable. The smallest interruption may set me off and I feel out of control. I lash out at those around me and they are hurt--I don't know who I am anymore and just try to shrink within myself and make it through the day. I don't know what my reaction(s) might be, so I stay away from others as much as possible. I'm like Jekyl and Hyde. I can't explain it, but I know I'm not getting any better, and I'm tired of going in circles. It's very difficult hiding all one's inadequacies...exhausting...wish I could just be myself.