Hello all. I have been struggling quite a bit lately. I’ve been depressed and anxious. The self loathing lately has been through the roof. The thoughts play in my head over and over “why am I here? Why do I even exist.” And “What’s the point of doing anything. I’m bad at everything I do.” I had a panic attack at 5 am, because my mind started asking what if something bad happens to my daughter, and my mind will supple images of her dead. Sometimes I’m able to just say”those are just thoughts, they don’t mean anything”, but sometimes they really get to me and I respond with pure fear. The uncertainty of something bad happening to her has freaked me out from the moment she was born. I OBSESSED about her possibly getting hurt or worse. Luckily, I don’t obsess as much anymore, I kind of think the Prozac helped with that. Lately has been rough though. Unfortunately, my mental health becomes worse right before I’m going to start my period. A lot of the time I get extremely anxious and depressed. This leads to more panic attacks and lots of suicidal thoughts. I try to tell myself, it’s just the hormones making things worse, but it brings no comfort. Sometimes I don’t know how to handle it. Thank you for reading guys.