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Knowing just enough isn’t helping

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Sorry this is not a nice post. I think sometimes a little knowledge can make things harder. My anxiety is high. On one hand I can’t settle down and on the other I don’t want to do anything I have to do. Is this anxiety? Is this depression? Is this PTSD? Does it even matter? I can’t seems to figure out what is going on but I can be present and in the moment and everything is seemingly ok and then I am thrown back to judgement, self doubt, bad thoughts, poor sleep but feeling so exhausted, and feeling like I am never going to get to a good place. I am irritable, moody, jumpy, and just not nice... I say a little knowledge because it seems like I know enough to know I am challenged with all this stuff yet not enough knowledge to make the yuck go away. Just thought I would put it out there...
 
I could have written that today.... I know WHY I'm upset and hypervigalant and stressed out and it doesn't do a damn thing towards stopping it. It's like the hamster wheel from hell...round and round and not getting anywhere. I know just enough to get myself in trouble, without knowing enough to get out. I have faith that eventually all the parts will fall into place --- and that's what I keep repeating.

I know its a process and I know it will work because I've talked with others who have already done this. Today is bad. Tomorrow will be a new day - maybe bad..maybe better. But new
 
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