I have been off of the job for over 6 years now after an injury ended my 12 year career. Since then, a cumulative injury to my spine in my neck reared its ugly head and now I may never work again. One of the worst things I cope with almost every day is this obsession or burning desire to go back to Law Enforcement (LE). When I see a patrol vehicle, hear a siren or see something on the news related to LE, my heart rate jumps up, my blood pressure boils and I feel invincible from the sudden surge of adrenaline and cortisol. Then the disappointment follows as I tell myself that part of my life is over and I will never be able to return to it again. Because of this, I do not watch cop shows, cop movies and I try to avoid the local news. If I were to watch any of these, the disappointment would just increase exponentially. It's overwhelming to try and make my emotional mind believe the rational mind that my career is over. Anyone out there dealing with the same thing? Any luck with coping techniques?