This is my first time joining any kind of forum. My sweet son took his life 2 years ago. He was 16. I have little to memory of the weeks surrounding his death. I miss him with all my heart. I have been recently diagnosed with PTSD regarding my son’s death. My PTSD is manifesting in horrible and surprising ways. I recently accused my wife of cheating and she is truly an amazing honest faithful person. The worst part is that this distorted view feels like real life... The pain is numbing. And when I come back to reality, there is my grief... Which I buried for 2 years. 2 flashbacks so far and they are undeacribible events. I see 2 counselors yet I feel empty every night. The thought of loosing my wife or my second son cripples me with fear, yet I’m pushing my wife away. And I can’t seem to stop it. I just hurt. A lot. All the time. And every day feels like an Everest...
Ricky C
Ricky C