I get affected by other people’s energy so easily, it’s like someone throwing water over me, which I am unable to do anything about. If the water is clean, though it’s uncomfortable because I would get wet, but not as bad as having dirty water thrown over me.
Similar to water, I absorb other people’s energy, whether positive or negative. Even though the positive energy isn’t as bad as negative energy; I tend to not hold on to what I want to feel; and I am dragged into what others feel, rather than what I want to feel.
Once I was riding with my brother on his scooter, I could feel his energy while sitting behind him. I started feeling as if I had absorbed his disgusting energy, just like one would smell a smelly person, or get some filth on oneself because of touching another person who was covered in filth.
In another incident, I started getting nervous in a call-center mock-call after witnessing another participant being nervous. Now, I wouldn’t feel something like this, if I was the first person to have done the mock-call, which is when I am able to perform really well. I found this from experience.
The most shocking incident that really shook me was when I was travelling in a shared taxi in 2018, and I started thinking as if I am inside this person’s body who was sitting in the front passenger seat. I was thinking as this person and not myself. I felt I am not myself any more.
The same happens with places as well. I went to this square about 2 months back, and all of a sudden, I felt this strong, negative energy (anger) hitting me, as if I got punched, the moment I stepped in that square. Later I found, there was a protest by university students just few days or even hours earlier.
One of my cousins, who is approximately 13-14 years older than me, told me, when I was 6 months old, I would fall sick when I was exposed to other people. I was separated from my parents for about 45 days when they were travelling; and this is when I lived with my cousin, and that's when my aunt told my cousin that I would fall sick when exposed to her neighbours, and she should avoid getting me exposed to other people.
I now wonder, how it all started. There is no way I can remember any traumatic experiences at the age of 6 months. All the traumatic experiences that I remember or recollect, may have happened after the age of 5 or 6.
It could be that the sudden separation at such a young age from my biological mother may have made me vulnerable to being affected by other people's energy.
I also noticed when my brother’s wife was pregnant, my father was really predatory towards her. This is again something, I felt in his tone when he was talking to my sister-in-law. It could be that he was doing the same to my mother when she was pregnant with me, and she got stressed, which then got passed onto me while I was still in my mother’s womb.
Another belief I have is me being handled by too many people since I was born. I have 6 elder siblings, and several cousins. I wonder, this exposure and handling by multiple people upon birth could have made me vulnerable.
Similar to water, I absorb other people’s energy, whether positive or negative. Even though the positive energy isn’t as bad as negative energy; I tend to not hold on to what I want to feel; and I am dragged into what others feel, rather than what I want to feel.
Once I was riding with my brother on his scooter, I could feel his energy while sitting behind him. I started feeling as if I had absorbed his disgusting energy, just like one would smell a smelly person, or get some filth on oneself because of touching another person who was covered in filth.
In another incident, I started getting nervous in a call-center mock-call after witnessing another participant being nervous. Now, I wouldn’t feel something like this, if I was the first person to have done the mock-call, which is when I am able to perform really well. I found this from experience.
The most shocking incident that really shook me was when I was travelling in a shared taxi in 2018, and I started thinking as if I am inside this person’s body who was sitting in the front passenger seat. I was thinking as this person and not myself. I felt I am not myself any more.
The same happens with places as well. I went to this square about 2 months back, and all of a sudden, I felt this strong, negative energy (anger) hitting me, as if I got punched, the moment I stepped in that square. Later I found, there was a protest by university students just few days or even hours earlier.
One of my cousins, who is approximately 13-14 years older than me, told me, when I was 6 months old, I would fall sick when I was exposed to other people. I was separated from my parents for about 45 days when they were travelling; and this is when I lived with my cousin, and that's when my aunt told my cousin that I would fall sick when exposed to her neighbours, and she should avoid getting me exposed to other people.
I now wonder, how it all started. There is no way I can remember any traumatic experiences at the age of 6 months. All the traumatic experiences that I remember or recollect, may have happened after the age of 5 or 6.
It could be that the sudden separation at such a young age from my biological mother may have made me vulnerable to being affected by other people's energy.
I also noticed when my brother’s wife was pregnant, my father was really predatory towards her. This is again something, I felt in his tone when he was talking to my sister-in-law. It could be that he was doing the same to my mother when she was pregnant with me, and she got stressed, which then got passed onto me while I was still in my mother’s womb.
Another belief I have is me being handled by too many people since I was born. I have 6 elder siblings, and several cousins. I wonder, this exposure and handling by multiple people upon birth could have made me vulnerable.
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