Ive tried so hard to get proper support and it just doesnt seem to exist. Things are getting worse and i dont have reasons to keep being here. With covid help is even more impossible and no way will i chance getting 5150d or go to hospital its not an option. I heard from a nurse "friend" a person she knew ended up sitting in ER hall for 2 days till they just released him cause no one is accepting patients. Leaves on pretty screwed have tried dr various times emailed twice two weeks ago no response she isnt helpful. Im so beyond lost in what to do i keep trying to function properly to only fail brain is so f*cked, health is screwed down to 105 lbs normal weight is like average 120. Head constantly hurts. Lymph nodes so out of whack but dr not helpful and dont trust her at this point or her referrals(issues in past with those). So screwed and done. Hanging feels like sleeping and way more comfortable than when a certain person choked me twice. I dont know anymore......seems should just allow to slip through cracks than constantly have to fight and advocate, for it to only be so beyond obsolete